Ben Ramazan\u2019\u0131m ya da Ramazan ben ya da belki ikimiz ikimizin de tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ba\u015fkas\u0131y\u0131z…Hayat\u0131 g\u00fcnde iki vakit tavuk d\u00f6ner yiyerek de\u011ferlendiren ve analizlerini \u00e7ay e\u015fli\u011finde yapan bir insan\u0131n hayata bak\u0131\u015f misyonu kaleme al\u0131n\u0131rsa sonunda ciddi felaketler abidesi ortaya \u00e7\u0131kabilir.<\/p>\n
Herkesin kendi felaketleri vard\u0131r.Asl\u0131nda felaketlerini kendin se\u00e7emezsin.Zaten sen ba\u015fl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na bir hiper felaketsin.Felaketler m\u00fczayedesi i\u00e7inde s\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 bekleyen bir tablo gibi\u2026Sen hi\u00e7 birbirine yalan s\u00f6ylemeyerek tatmin olan insan g\u00f6rd\u00fcn m\u00fc?G\u00f6remezsin tabii ki.G\u00f6z, g\u00f6z de\u011fil..Victoria secret podyumu sanki..Can s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 genetik bir can s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r.Asl\u0131nda nedeni monoton hayat\u0131n bize sunduklar\u0131 de\u011fildir.S\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131yla aram\u0131zda olan s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r.Halledemedi\u011fimizden kelli hi\u00e7bir zaman y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z bar\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.Biz insanlar kendimizden ba\u015fka kimseyi sevemedik.S\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131za biraz \u015fefkat g\u00f6sterseydik e\u011fer beyinsel tsunami riskimiz azalabilirdi.Ruhsal soyk\u0131r\u0131m\u0131n ana nedeni bu olabilir belki de\u2026Bence soyk\u0131r\u0131m bazen iyi y\u00f6nde kullan\u0131labilir.\u015eiddetten yana olan soyk\u0131r\u0131mlar hayvanl\u0131k \u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr.Bizim soyk\u0131r\u0131m\u0131m\u0131z hayvanl\u0131\u011fa kar\u015f\u0131 oland\u0131r.Bedene kar\u015f\u0131 olan a\u015fklara bir kar\u015f\u0131tl\u0131kt\u0131r bu.Unutma soyk\u0131r\u0131m yaln\u0131zca \u015fiddetle yap\u0131lmaz t\u0131pk\u0131 do\u011fdu\u011fundan beri g\u00f6z ard\u0131 edilmi\u015f fikirlerin gibi..\u0130\u015fte senin ger\u00e7ek felaketin budur.Bazen zaman\u0131 durdurmak istersin.\u0130\u00e7eride uyuyan o g\u00fczel k\u0131zla pompalan\u0131r kalp ritimlerin ve \u00e7ekti\u011fin sigaran\u0131n duman\u0131yla yazars\u0131n ba\u015f harfini en derinlere\u2026Bazen cebinde kalan son bir lira kadar umudun vard\u0131r.Umudunu kaybetmemekten zevk alan bir objektifle bakabilirsin d\u00fcnyaya.Mesela cebinde kalan son bir lirayla kitap yazma umudunu kaybetmemek gibi\u2026Dokunmak dedi\u011fin parmak u\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 kondurmakla olmaz.G\u00f6zlerinle ok\u015famal\u0131s\u0131n hislerini.Sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fclmeli dokunu\u015flar\u0131n.Bunu beceremiyorsan ne anlam\u0131 kal\u0131r ki umutlar\u0131n..Bazen bir ergenin alkoll\u00fc halini ya\u015fars\u0131n.\u0130\u00e7meden sarho\u015flukta denilebilir buna.Y\u0131llard\u0131r seksen kiloluk bir enkaz\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131makla nas\u0131l ay\u0131k gezilebilir ki zaten..Etrafta insan taklidi yapanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda sahte g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flerini sergilersin.Kim bilir senin kocaman bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131k evrenin de bo\u011fuldu\u011funu ya da \u00a0Red Kit izleyerek b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f bir neslin \u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc oldu\u011fumuzdan dolay\u0131d\u0131r bu duygusall\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u2026<\/p>\n
R\u00fcyalar\u0131nda kendini sonsuzlu\u011fa b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n kanyonda ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n son nefeste, son kez t\u00fck\u00fcr d\u00fcnyaya..T\u00fck\u00fcr t\u00fcm nefretini..Uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sokak aralar\u0131na asfalt atmak yerine, laminat parke d\u00f6\u015feyen i\u015f\u00e7ileri g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde y\u0131k\u0131lacakt\u0131r hayallerin\u2026Son s\u00f6z bana gelirse; Asla bir meczup olamayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131n fark\u0131nday\u0131m.Ben her zaman bizim k\u00f6y\u00fcn zencisi olmak istedim ve oldum.Tarz meselesi\u2026<\/p>\n
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Ben Ramazan\u2019\u0131m ya da Ramazan ben ya da belki ikimiz ikimizin de tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir ba\u015fkas\u0131y\u0131z…Hayat\u0131 g\u00fcnde iki vakit tavuk d\u00f6ner yiyerek de\u011ferlendiren ve analizlerini \u00e7ay e\u015fli\u011finde yapan bir insan\u0131n hayata bak\u0131\u015f misyonu kaleme al\u0131n\u0131rsa sonunda ciddi felaketler abidesi ortaya \u00e7\u0131kabilir. Herkesin kendi felaketleri vard\u0131r.Asl\u0131nda felaketlerini kendin se\u00e7emezsin.Zaten sen ba\u015fl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na bir hiper felaketsin.Felaketler m\u00fczayedesi i\u00e7inde…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":20,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[138,140,132,137,70,135,133,130,131,134,139,136],"class_list":["post-1186","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kisisel-bloglar","tag-cay","tag-doner","tag-duygusal","tag-felaket","tag-fikir","tag-goz","tag-red-kit","tag-sikinti","tag-soykirim","tag-tarz","tag-tavuk","tag-victoria-secret"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1186","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/20"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1186"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1186\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1234,"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1186\/revisions\/1234"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1186"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1186"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/masonlar.org\/hur\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1186"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}